Growing Up.

Oh.

2009-10-13T21:19:00.003+08:00

Oh, by the way, the Warrior post isn't the post that I wanted to post as the First Post of my renewed blog. It's in a current state of stage fright right now. Will post the Real First Post once I can coax it out of its frightened state! =P

Warrior.

2009-10-11T00:20:00.002+08:00

I just started playing World of Warcraft(WoW) a few days ago with Bernard and Ming. At first I was very skeptical about the game because it seemed like such a 'guy' game to play. I surprisingly found myself liking the game, and No, I am NOT getting addicted to it. In fact, I actually learnt something spiritual from it. My character in the game is a warrior. I've always played warrior whenever I play online games like Maple Story and Ragnarok Online. Warrior has always been my favourite because I love how hands on the character is when it comes to killing the monsters.
So, we were playing WoW yesterday, Bernard and I, and he said something very interesting to me.He told me how I liked charging straight towards the monsters and how it almost seemed reckless. I realised how different I am in real life from my character. As much as I would like to be as courageous with my daily "battles", I really am not. In fact, my first response would be to shy away and to sulk in a corner about it. That's not who I want to be, a person who runs away and sits in a corner when problems arise. In that area, I would very much like to be more like my warrior; charging towards obstacles and battling them hands on!

Psalm 92:1-5 I want to sing Your joy aloud and proud,Lord.

Time For a Change.

2009-09-29T01:26:00.002+08:00

Everything in my life right now seems to be revolving around 'change'. Therefore, I have decided, as motivation to update my blog more often, I am going to change the look of my blog. I really want to do something special with it and not let it just be a place for me to dump random and insignificant posts. I want my blog to reflect all the things that mean something in my life. I actually have a special post already written in my journal and I want it to be the first post on my Renewed blog. So, hopefully I get the things that I want to do with my blog done fast.=)

Spontaneous Idealist.

2009-09-03T14:55:00.002+08:00

Spontaneous Idealists are creative, lively and open-minded persons. They are humorous and dispose of a contagious zest for life. Their enthusiasm and sparkling energy inspires others and sweeps them along. They enjoy being together with other people and often have an uncanny intuition for their motivations and potential. Spontaneous Idealists are masters of communication and very amusing and gifted entertainers. Fun and variety are guaranteed when they are around. However, they are sometimes somewhat too impulsive in dealing with others and can hurt people without really meaning to do so, due to their direct and sometimes critical nature.

This personality type is a keen and alert observer; they miss nothing which is going on around them. In extreme cases, they tend to be oversensitive and exaggeratedly alert and are inwardly always ready to jump. Life for them is an exciting drama full of emotionality. However, they quickly become bored when things repeat themselves and too much detailed work and care is required. Their creativity, their imaginativeness and their originality become most noticeable when developing new projects and ideas - they then leave the meticulous implementation of the whole to others. On the whole, Spontaneous Idealists attach great value to their inner and outward independence and do not like accepting a subordinate role. They therefore have problems with hierarchies and authorities.

If you have a Spontaneous Idealist as your friend, you will never be bored; with them, you can enjoy life to the full and celebrate the best parties. At the same time, they are warm, sensitive, attentive and always willing to help. If Spontaneous Idealists have just fallen in love, the sky is full of violins and their new partners are showered with attention and affection. This type then bubbles over with charm, tenderness and imagination. But, unfortunately, it soon becomes boring for them once the novelty has worn off. Boring everyday life in a partnership is not for them so that many Spontaneous Idealists slip from one affair into another. However, should the partner manage to keep their curiosity alive and not let routine and familiarity gain the upper hand, Spontaneous Idealists can be inspiring and loving partners.

Adjectives which describe your type: spontaneous, enthusiastic, idealistic, extroverted, theoretical, emotional, relaxed, friendly, optimistic, charming, helpful, independent, individualistic, creative, dynamic, lively, humorous, full of zest for life, imaginative, changeable, adaptable, loyal, sensitive, inspiring, sociable, communicative, erratic, curious, open, vulnerable

Career

As a Spontaneous Idealist you are one of the extroverted personality types. You enjoy working in a colorfully diverse group of people who interest and inspire you. Working in a “secluded room” is not your thing. Your sense for the motivation of others is almost eerie. You constantly observe that which happens around you and have no problems noticing all sorts of things simultaneously or communicating with several people at the same time.

Your enthusiasm is contagious to others and that is why your colleagues and friends all appreciate you as an important member of your team. Your articulateness and your sensitive ear for nuances in conversations with others obviously play a role. For you, this team-oriented environment is very important because you need to receive positive feedback and recognition like other people need air to breathe. It would be practically impossible for you to contribute everything you need to maintain your high ideals, by yourself.

Variety, challenges and fun are important ingredients of your area of responsibility. You appreciate receiving new stimulation, meeting new people, and continuously collecting unique experiences. However, too much routine, too much detail work and the necessity to stick with one project for a very long time is not your thing. Your strength are creative problem solutions, discovering new ways and opportunities, the conceptualization of new ideas on one hand, but not so much their concrete implementation on the other. Ideally, you have a staff of capable colleagues that takes over your concepts and runs with them.

Love

When you are in love, you easily outperform all other personality types in terms of enthusiasm and panache. Then your commitment knows no limits. You go out of your way in your eagerness to express your affection, and in your happiness, you are ready to embrace the entire world. When watching your attempts to flirt, one can’t help but think about a puppy dancing happily around its new playmate. Then for you simply nothing exists but your newfound love. „Hold your horses!“ - “Discretion is the better part of valor!” - “All that glitters is not gold!” - these worldly wisdoms are nothing but a waste of time.

With the entire spontaneity of your personality type, you instinctively immerse yourself in your emotions because you are sure that this time you have found the perfect partner. And you want everything here and now. You can probably go through as many divorces and separations as you want, but you are never going to learn from experience and at the age of 70 - and with shining eyes - you are still ready to walk down the aisle. Your friends may sometimes have a problem watching this, but they can only shake their heads in exasperation, and hope and pray, because in those moments you won’t accept advice from anyone. Then it would be easier to get in the way of a Tsunami.

In a long-term partnership you are a charming, affectionate, and unconventional partner, always good for a surprise, always there if you are needed, always ready for a loving compliment. As generous as you are with your feelings, so do you love to spend money and lavish your partner with gifts - sometimes even causing the very security minded and conservative types in the relationship to get a little weak in the knees. Should they now be happy that you abducted them to a luxury hotel for a romantic weekend, or should they be concerned whether there will be a problem when the next rent payment becomes due? Everyday things only interest you peripherally anyway; sometimes you walk with a downright childish confidence through life believing that the universe, fate or some other supreme powers are going to make sure that at the end everything will work out. So, why worry and save? It is interesting that this sometimes even works!

No more.

2009-08-07T12:25:00.004+08:00

God,
I'm sick of coming up with excuses.I want to stop being a hypocrite.I've always said that I want to live my life according to Your will,and live my life with the purpose that you have intended for me to live by.It's time to see if I actually walk the talk.I'm sorry for the lame excuses in the past,
for the condition of my unwilling heart,and the fear that immediately took over the place of wanting to do Your work.No more of that,Lord,no more.

Brighter Side of Things.

2009-07-23T23:00:00.007+08:00

It's so easy for me to just focus on all the sad things in life,to just stay in that place of depression and drown myself in self-pity.Really,it is so extremely easy.As much as taking the easy way out sounds very tempting,I also know just as much that it won't solve anything or make situations any better.It can only go one way;falling farther away from reality and tricking myself into believing things are just peachy,when they really aren't.

However,I am NOT choosing to take the easy way out.God didn't put me here in this world for MY convenience.Me being on this world has nothing to do with ME even.I'm choosing to be less selfish,less negative and less of a scaredy cat.
I'm choosing to look at the brighter side of things.I'm choosing to be more selfless and think more of others instead of focusing all my energy on myself;it's tiring.I'm choosing to smile more,to laugh more and to be happy more.=)

Undeserving.

2009-07-05T00:31:00.002+08:00

God,I don't deserve anything You've given me,or anything You've done for me.My life is worth nothing without You,Lord.Thank You for showing me Your love and Your grace.All I am is Yours.

The Great Adventures of Trying on Clothes.

2009-07-03T19:00:00.003+08:00

So,today after class,a bunch of my friends and I went to Jalan Ipoh to try on traditional clothes for our Malaysian Studies presentation which is happening mid August.I had to rush through my lunch with Angel and Dalvin because my friends were waiting for me.Felt so bad!=/ Yea,anyway,so we took an lrt to Masjid Jamek and then took a bus to Jalan Ipoh.None of us knew where the shop really was,and yet we all blindly went.Hahaha..but we managed to find the place just fine (Vivian's uncle's shop).Photos below!!=P

I don't have any pictures of Sian.Sorry Sian!You looked awesome in that dress though!=P
I actually have loads more photos,but I shall keep them for myself!Hahaha=P

Childlike Glee

2009-06-30T21:56:00.001+08:00

Running after a bus and laughing really hard with your friends is fun!
I miss running.

Nostalgia

2009-06-29T23:24:00.001+08:00

I miss being a kid...

Korean BBQ Pic

2009-06-29T19:23:00.002+08:00

Sadly I only have one picture..hahaha..

Korean BBQ!!

2009-06-24T01:03:00.002+08:00

I went for dinner with Bernard last night,which was pretty much a few hours ago,but since it's after 12,last night.Hahaha.It was our first time having Korean BBQ,so we really had no idea what to expect.We sat down at the table by the window and looked through the menus handed to us by the waiter.We couldn't really figure out how the meal would turn out through the pictures on the menu,so the restaurant owner,this really nice Korean lady assisted us.She recommended some stuff to us and we just agreed to her recommendation.
Honestly,even after her explanation,I couldn't really picture how the meal would turn out.So,we were just sitting there and talking while waiting for the food to arrive.Then Bernard said,"Koreans actually eat very little.",and I just went,"Ohhh...".So,I was really expecting a small portion of food that wouldn't be enough for the both of us.When the food arrived,Bernard and I just stared at all the food.We sat there for slightly over an hour and we were just chewing and chewing and chewing and talking also of course!=P
I'll post pictures when I get them from Berns!!=D

Good Days=)

2009-06-23T12:55:00.002+08:00

I woke up today feeling good,which hasn't happened for quite some time now.Mainly because I usually have to wake up against my own willingness.This morning,I actually had enough sleep throughout the night and I really just felt good!I'm convinced that it's a sign that today will be a good day.Today will be a day where I just lay aside my worry about my assignments and presentations.Today will be a day where I lay aside the misunderstandings I had with my college friends over the weekend.Today will be a day where I allow myself to have hope,a day for me to focus on the smaller and simpler things in life.

I had a pool session (Pool Session - A session for Priscilla Chew and Elena Lai to just catch up on each other's lives and laugh like silly people beside the pool) with Pris last night.She came over to my place.She was telling me again how bored she was that day-so bored that she actually read my blog,and by read I mean visited my posts for many years ago.Hahaha..And that made me want to read my old posts too,so I did.I read them just a few minutes ago,not all of them of course,but just browsed through as many as I could.That just made today and even "gooder" day!Hahahah..I realised how much I've grown over these past few years,the seasons I went through and all the old memories that are so precious.Life is good.Life is very very good.Or rather God is good.=) I'm thankful for where I am in my life today,I'm thankful for the good times and the bad times I went through and I'm hopeful and anticipating more to come.=)

Entered

2009-06-22T19:45:00.004+08:00

God,I've entered this place,
Where all I want to see is Your face.
I'm tired of living in this world,
I just want to go to that place where I'll be whole.

God,I've entered this place,
Where all around me is safe;
Though I may see disaster in the distance,
I know You will keep me safe.

God,I've entered this place,
Where my hopes and dreams are held in Your hands.
You've assured me that I will never regret,
I will live a life here without fret.

God,I've entered this place,
And you hold my broken heart to Your heart so whole.
You picked me up when all I knew was fall.
I'm not leaving,God,not now,not ever,never at all.

Disaster!

2009-05-11T22:32:00.007+08:00

My sister and I decided to bake my mom a cake for mother's day.So,on Saturday,we walked to Sri Kota to buy the ingredients we needed.My dad gave us the money for the shopping.=P We decided we'd bake her a Coffee Yogurt Cake.We originally wanted to surprise her with the cake,but since we live in a condominium,she was well aware of the ongoings taking place in the kitchen roughly 30metres away from her bedroom.Everything was going well until we put the bater into the oven.Our beautiful cake,got burned because the temperatre was set too high.I was so so so sad!!!!All our hard work and heart work got destroyed!!

On the bright side,the remains after getting the burned parts off tasted pretty good.It would have been a really good cake!Not too bad for a first try at baking.Haha=)

Here are the pictures from the disaster.

The top layer of the burnt cake.It completely covered my palm!That's how much cake we could've eaten!

This was all that was left after removing the burnt parts.*Sniff sniff*

Me being very sad about my cake.Hahaha...Wanted to get a picture of my sister being sad too,but she didn't want her photo taken.Reminds me of a certain someone.=P Hahah

Never judge a book by its cover.

2009-05-11T22:05:00.002+08:00

In this case however,never judge a song by its title.When I saw the title Love Story,honestly my interest just turned off.Good thing Jasmine and Christina convinced me it was good.So,I did listen to it and I absolutely loved it!!I really wanted to upload the video from Youtube here,but sadly,I can't.Something wrong with blogspot.So,for the very few people who read my blog(haha),and are interested in listening to it,here you go!!=D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0v3d6SFcDys

Woah....

2009-04-13T10:55:00.003+08:00

Where did time go???SPM's been over for slightly more than 4 months now!!Craziness!!!!!!There's still stuff that I had originally planned to do during that lost time that I haven't done yet.

No.1 on that list is to get my driver's license.Drive drive drive!!=P

Hahaha!!!So adorable the kid!!!=P

Actually,I think that's the only thing on the list right now.Hahaha...

I'm working on getting it off the list!!Wheeee!!=P

God...

2009-04-08T11:11:00.001+08:00

Thank You for the people in my life who keep me going, who take the initiative to care, who constantly push me to do hard things, but most of all, who make me more thankful that You, our amazing Father in Heaven, created them to make my life beautiful.

Elena NEEDS to...

2009-04-03T15:30:00.002+08:00

1. Take more photos!!!

2.Update her blog more!!!

3.Plan 91 Outing!!!

4.Not be a bum at home!!!

5.Call and sms more people!!!

6.See beautiful Dylan more!!!

7.Learn to drive ASAP!!!

8.Be happy more often!!!

9.Spend less money!!!

10.Hear from God!!!

Lamenting.

2009-04-02T19:54:00.004+08:00

We all have ups and downs in our lives,no one can deny that.One moment we feel like nothing in the world can knock us out of our happiness,and the next moment all you want to do is dig a huge pit and hide inside it.I've been facing the latter a lot lately.In fact,I find it so extremely hard to be genuinely happy for more than short periods of time.People tell me it's just a season that I'm going through in life,that it'll be over before I even know it.Yet,none of their encouragements and advice is really helping much.Instead of helping me through my situation,it seems to be driving me deeper and deeper into my sorrow.I'm reaching the brink of it all.I can't find the strength to go on anymore.Everything just seems to get worse day by day.

I know I can turn to God in my moment of pain and hurt.I know He hears me,but its just so hard to gain strength and relief from that sometimes.I just want to shout,"I can't hear You,God!I don't know what You're saying to me or if You're even saying anything to me!I don't want to have to go through this anymore!You said that Your grace is sufficient for me,that I can always look to You for strength,but this time God,I can't seem to find it.I'm so tired,Lord.I just want out of all of this.I need You,but most of all,I WANT YOU!I can't get through this without You,Lord."

Seriously!!!

2009-02-13T23:33:00.002+08:00

Okay!!!This is seriously an update k!!Hahahaha...
Well,tonight I went for College CG for the first time.Taman Desa CG!!!
Although it wasn't really a big group,I personally think it was a great time!
Honestly,at first it was a little weird because everyone there weren't exactly
the people I usually hang out with,but they were all so nice and it was great
fun in the end!Hahaha=D So,we introduced ourselves and stuff,ate,talked and
played a modified version of the Blanket Game.Hahahaha...It was super funny!
The loser had to be smeared with whipped cream/shaving cream.We decided
after a while that whipped cream dripped too much and we didn't want to dirty
Maka's house.By the end of the game,everyone had Santa beards.Yes,even the
girls.Hahahaha...Hopefully,I'll get the pictures soon!=D

That's all for now!=D
-Elena-

Dear God,

2009-01-31T21:21:00.002+08:00

Please help me make the right decisions in every aspect of my life.Teach me to lean on Your strength and allow me to understand the all that You want for me in life.I know You want the best for me and I know You will give me the best.Please teach me to be patient and be more attentive to Your voice.Lord,please help me to walk the paths that you have set for me.Please don't let me stray.
In Jesus' name I pray,
Amen.

FINALLY!!

2009-01-11T20:57:00.000+08:00

I have internet again!!!!!!Updates coming soon.....=D

The Difference between Science and God

2008-07-20T16:35:00.002+08:00

*Got this from an e-mail and I thought it was quite cool.=) Iy's kind of in conjunction with apologetics.=D

The DIFFERENCE-------------------------- Science and God
'Let me explain the problem science has with Jesus Christ.' The atheist (someone whom doesn’t believe in spiritual existence)professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his new students to stand.
'You're a Christian, aren't you, son?'
'Yes sir,' the student says.
'So you believe in God?'
'Absolutely.'
'Is God good?'
'Sure! God's good.'
'Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?'
'Yes.'
'Are you good or evil?'
'The Bible says I'm evil.'
The professor grins knowingly. 'Aha! The Bible!' He considers for a moment.
'Here's one for you. Let's say there's a sick person over here and you can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?'
'Yes sir, I would.'
'So you're good...!'
'I wouldn't say that.'
'But why not say that? You'd help a sick and maimed person if you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn't.'
The student does not answer, so the professor continues. 'He doesn't, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even though he prayed to Jesus to heal him How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can you answer that one?'
The student remains silent.
'No, you can't, can you?' the professor says. He takes a sip of water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.
'Let's start again, young fella Is God good?'
'Er...yes,' the student says.
'Is Satan good?'
The student doesn't hesitate on this one. 'No.'
'Then where does Satan come from?'
The student : 'From...God...'
'That's right. God made Satan, didn't he? Tell me, son. Is there evil in this world?'<>'Yes, sir.'
'Evil's everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything,correct?'
'Yes.'
'So who created evil?' The professor continued, 'If God created everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to the principle that our works define who we are, then God is evil.'
Without allowing the student to answer, the professor continues:'Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things, do they exist in this world?'
The student: 'Yes.'
'So who created them?'
The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his question. 'Who created them? There is still no answer. Suddenly the lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is mesmerized.
'Tell me,' he continues onto another student. 'Do you believe in Jesus Christ, son?'
The student's voice is confident: 'Yes, professor, I do.'
The old man stops pacing . 'Science says you have five senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seen Jesus?'
'No sir. I've never seen Him'
'Then tell us if you've ever heard your Jesus?'
'No, sir, I have not.'
'Have you ever actually felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or smelt your Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus Christ, or God for that matter?'
'No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't.'
'Yet you still believe in him?'
'Yes.'
'According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that,son?'
'Nothing,' the student replies. 'I only have my faith.'
'Yes, faith,' the professor repeats. 'And that is the problem science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith.'
The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a question of his own. 'Professor, is there such thing as heat? '
'Yes,' the professor replies. 'There's heat.'
'And is there such a thing as cold?'
'Yes, son, there's cold too.'
'No sir, there isn't.'
The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested.The room suddenly becomes very quiet. The student begins to explain.
'You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat,mega-heat, unlimited heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but we don't have anything called 'cold'. We can hit up to 458 degrees below zero, which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold; otherwise we would be able to go colder than the lowest -458 degrees. Every body or object is susceptible to study when it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-458 F) is the total absence of heat.You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.'
Silence across the room. A pen drops somewhere in the classroom, sounding like a hammer.
'What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as darkness?'
'Yes,' the professor replies without hesitation. 'What is night if it isn't darkness?'
'You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light, but if you have no light constantly you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? That's the meaning we use to define the word. In reality, darkness isn't. If it were, you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?'
The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him.This will be a good semester. 'So what point are you making, young man?'
'Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is flawed to start with, and so your conclusion must also be flawed.'
The professor's face cannot hide his surprise this time.'Flawed? Can you explain how?'
'You are working on the premise of duality,' the student explains. 'You argue that there is life and then there's death; a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it.'
'Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?'
'If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young man, yes, of course I do '
'Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?'
The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he realizes where the argument is going. A very good semester, indeed.
'Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a preacher?'
The class is in uproar. The student remains silent until the commotion has subsided.
'To continue the point you were making earlier to the other student, let me give you an example of what I mean.'
The student looks around the room. 'Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the professor's brain?' The class breaks out into laughter.
'Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor's brain, felt the professor's brain, touched or smelled the professor's brain? No one appears to have do n e so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, with all due respect, sir. So if science says you have no brain,how can we trust your lectures, sir?'
Now the room is silent. The professor just stares at the student, his face unreadable.
Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers. 'I guess you'll have to take them on faith.'
'Now, you accept that there is faith, and, in fact, faith exists with life,' the student continues. 'Now, sir, is there such a thing as evil?'
Now uncertain, the professor responds, 'Of course, there is. We see it everyday. It is in the daily example of man's inhumanity to man.It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world. These manifestations are nothing else but evil.'
To this the student replied, 'Evil does not exist sir, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God.It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God.
God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there is no light.'
The professor sat down.

Some people may find this weird...

2008-07-05T15:23:00.002+08:00

..but I am so much more inspired to be a mother thanks so my dog,Paris.As some of you may know,she gave birth to 7 adorable and beautiful puppies 6 days ago.This is her second litter ever and since her first time being a mother,she has improved so much.She wasn't very good at taking care of her first batch of puppies.She would run off to bark at some random stranger outside the house leaving her puppies crying(At least,I think they were crying.).Or she'd run off with one of the puppies hanging off her nipple attempting to get milk.
Since then,she's learned to be so much more attentive to her puppies.If one of the puppies fell off the short ledge of the cupboard they live in(They chose to.=P),she'd quickly pick them up with her mouth and then cuddle them.It's so inspiring.It's amazing how God gave animals parental instincts,what more humans.It really challenges me.If animals can look after their babies that well,why is it there are so many cases of abuse caused by parents all over the world?Why do we hear about cases of child molestation that just make people so repulsed?I don't get it sometimes.
I hope that one day I'll get the privilege to be a mom,and I'll be capable enough to love my child/children,to care for them,to always teach them and be there for them.=]

Prefects' Installation and Retirement

2008-07-04T17:13:00.022+08:00

So,today was our school's Prefects' Installation and Retirement day.There was a 'ceremony' to install the upcoming board and one to celebrate the stepping down of the outgoing board,which consisted of only the Form 5 prefects.It was really emotional,but at the same time there was a sense of relief and excitement running through the senior prefects who were retiring(including me).We all had mastermind plans in our heads to cause trouble when we become non-prefects again.Hahaha...=P This is how the day went:-

Jaya and I,sitting at our morning duty place for the last time.Jaya is my partner and a really great friend(CLOWN!=P).

Cleanliness Department of the Prefectorial Board 07/08,consisting of Jaya,Cynthia and I.Jaya and Cynthia are my ever-dependable assistants.I love you two!!!=D

Jaya and I on our morning rounds around the school compound;checking that the school is clean and picking up rubbish around the area.That's one of out pit stops,the rubbish bin.=P

One of the places where we check every morning.

And after picking up the rubbish,the ever-faithful sink of hygiene.Hahaha...That's outside the teacher's toilet.

My junior,Chooi Yoke and I,walking towards our respective places;the stage and our momentary seats.See the corsage?Me likey...ahahahaha...Chooi Yoke pinned it on for me.=)

Getting my certificate from the Senior Assistant for Afternoon Session,Puan Ng.The certificate wasn't the actual one.It was just a piece of white A4 paper tied with a ribbon.-_-'

Sitting at our seats;together with the 2 Head of Canteens,Jaclyn and Siew May.=)

The retiring senior prefects together with our principal,Madam Chia,all the Penolong Kanan(s),Puan Tan,Puan Setty(I think that's how its spelt),Puan NG,and our teacher advisors,Puan Gawery and Puan Faridah.

Nivanyah(Assistant Head Prefect),Asvin(Secretary),Ackshaya(Head Prefect),Jaya(Assistant Head of Cleanliness),Shalini(Head of Discipline),Thivea(forgot her post=X),Jaclyn(Head of Canteen),Santira(Head of Discipline as well),Padma..

Ex-Cleanliness Squad+Cleanliness Squad;Jaya,Zhi Wen,Chooi Yoke,me,Jayaselvi.

The seniors throwing their blazers.Hahahah...That was mega fun!It took us so long to get majority of the seniors on stage,and by the time we were on stage,the juniors were all cheering us on.In all my 4 years of experiencing a Prefects' Installation,this year has got to be the most fun!

LOL!!!Nivanyah's blazer got stuck on the projecter!We were all literally laughing till tears were streaming down our faces.My face felt so hot and I'm pretty sure it was an unattractive shade of red.Hahaha...but it was hilarious!Jaya,being one of the tallest there,had to stand on a stack of chairs to get it down.Hahaha...

The new Head of Canteen,Wen Yee and me.

Levina,ex-Head of Toilet with her junior,Sangeetha(prefect cantik=P).

Wen Yee and Levina.

Sajrina(new Assistant Head Prefect),Levina,Tinisha and Wanie.

Sha and Wanie.

Sha and Kuha,one of the new prefects.

Hui Ling,another new prefect and Siew May.

Didi,another new prefect and I.

Didi and Jaya.

Charissa,afternoon session retiring prefect as well as CF president and I.

Levina,Kah Wei(retiring Assistant Head Prefect),Sha,me,Siew May and Yi Jean(another retiring prefect).

Wonderful cousin Lenna who helped take majority of the photos and I.

Kah Wei and I.

Ubi Kayu!!One of the retiring afternoon session prefects and I.

Felicia,one of the new prefects and I.

A bunch of us in the Prefects' Room for the last time.

Lenna and Maizatul after the installation,getting ready to go for coco activities.

Levina and I in the canteen after coco activities.

Shirleyuen,the girl who was responsible for playing the piano during the Installation and I.

Farhana and Levina.

All in all,it was a very memorable day for me.I also think today is the day I've posed for that many pictures in my whole entire life.Hahaha...I'm going to miss being a prefect,but most of all I'm going to miss all the people who's ever touched my life through being a prefect,the people I got to work with and do stupid stuff with.I'm going to miss the advantages and perks of being a prefect as well.I think one thing that made it feel so emotional for me is that it signified something ending-A chapter of my life finally coming to an end.I'm truly thankful for my experience of being a prefect.In total,I've been a prefect for 6 years of my schooling life,since primary school.I'm going to miss it even though I don't like it sometimes.=P

Goodbye Prefect Days!!

A Day in the Life of Elena=)

2008-07-01T18:28:00.002+08:00

Well,I actually 2 things to update about.I'll start with the less exciting and slightly emotional one.
Yesterday we(MGSKL prefects) had our Annual Grand Meeting(AGM) in the school hall.All the Head of Departments-Head of Discipline,Head of Canteen,Head of Cleanliness,Head of Toilet,Head of Students' Affairs,etc.-had to give our final speech as a prefect.It was a hassle for me and I honestly didn't really put much thought into my speech.I just wrote the usual stuff people say when they're stepping down and I was done.The first speech was made by the Canteen Heads;Jaclyn and Siew May.It was quite entertaining listening to their speeches and I actually started to get a little emotional.Next,was me.I got up there,looked around for one face in particular,my partner,Jaya and gave her this enormous smile.I looked at the piece of paper and decidedI wouldn't refer to it.The most unexpected thing happened then.I'm usually just fine when it comes to giving speeches or reports like that,but I had no idea why I suddenly felt the heat creep up to my face and instantly I knew it was turning bright red.SO NOT COOL!!!!!I started to feel extremely hot in my blazer-like really extremely fever hot.So,I said what I had to say and took my seat again.Then Siew May told me that my hands was shaking really badly.I really don't know what had gotten into me.Gosh,it was so embarassing!!!!Hahahaha...So yea,then we listened to all the other speeches.I think everyone was really nervous that day,for some unknown reason.I just really didn't expect to feel nervous.Listening to all the speeches from my peers and then from my teacher advisor,I really felt so proud of all the Senior prefects,soon to be retiring.I never thought I'd ever say this,but I'm actually going to miss being a prefect in MGS.

Now for the exciting news!!MY DOG GAVE BIRTH TO SEVEN PUPPIES!!!and THEY'RE SO EXTREMELY ADORABLE!!!
Sadly,we won't be able to keep them since we'll be moving soon.So,anyone wants a puppy?=) Give me a call or drop me a sms.There are 2 males and 5 females.I'll put up pictures of them soon.=D
Requirements to adopt them(currently known as Do,Re,Mi,Fa,So,La and Ti)=P,
1)Must be a dog lover.
2)Must be willing to shower them with TLC.
3)Must be willing so put up with their silly antics.=P
Oh by the way,they're a mixed breed,and by mixed,I mean I don't know what their heritage are at all...Hahahah...

5E

2008-06-27T20:26:00.002+08:00

Jaya..I'll post up more soon...Camera locked in my daddy's car..hahaha=P

Stepping Out!!!!

2008-06-12T19:41:00.002+08:00

I am so so so so so extremely excited!!!!!!This is the first CF Rally we're actually hosting in my school!!The first time we're letting our CF get exposure and one of the greatest opportunities to worship and lift up my God's name in school!!!God,I thank you so so much for all the blessings You have abundantly poured down upon us throughout the planning and preparation!God,I just hope and pray and ask that You let it be a success,and also that things go YOUR way and not how we want it to be!!!=D

Anyone who's interested in coming please do let me know!!Come support Terry too!!!=D

Tagged..

2008-06-10T16:21:00.002+08:00

8 things I'm passionate about
-God!!!=)
-English..hahaha..can't stand bad english,not that mine's all that good.Which is why I can't stand myself sometimes..hahaha
-having fun and doing nonsense=P
-talking to people(especially love the conversations during sleepovers=D )
-good movies!they can be so inspiring sometimes..=)
-music..i love love love listening to music
-my life principles=)
-living a legacy

8 things I do or say often
-Bum...=P
-Shucks..
-Backside..hahaha
-Gosh!!
-stare at the moon=P
-dream about (_______________)
-elaborate things although they don't need elaboration
-think=) (hope you do this a lot too=P)

8 things I've read recently
-My bible
-Lots of people's blogs
-Text books in school
-All about Him by Colette Caddle
-Text messages sent by friends
-E-mails
-Subtitles from movies..haha
-Words lahhh..!!hahaha

8 songs I could listen over and over again
-Hero by Superchic[k]
-Few songs by Joy Williams
-Anything I loaded into my phone..which is over 30 songs...so yay!!more than 8!!haha=P

8 things I learnt last year
-Add Maths=P
-Physics=P
-Chemistry=P
-Biology=P
-Guys are mega fun to hang out with..ahahah
-I love Miri and I so want to go back there!!!!!!!!
-I cry and blush too easily...it's irritating sometimes!!
-I still need to learn to trust God a lot better..=) working on it...

8 people to tag
-Christina Wee
-Danielle Ng
-Lenna Lai
-Chloe Lee
-Regina Liang
-Melody Ng
-Lim Wen Yee
-Anyone who wants to do it..=P

For You.my dear Christina Wee..=P

2008-06-05T22:56:00.003+08:00

For you.my dear,
I have swam the oceans so deep;
Deep and wide,trembling with fear.

Yet with your love,
In my hand,soul and mind,
No tower,wall or barrier,
can cross our love so divine.

Pits of fire shall have no hold on me,
For my love for you burns furiously indeed.
And with the heat from those flames,
I will shout your beautiful name,
For all the world to hear,again and again.

Lol!!!Chris!!!I'm laughing too hard to continue this!!!Hope you're happy with my declaration of love to you..=P Hahahaha..

2008-06-04T20:25:00.006+08:00

Is it just me?Or is my life reeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaallllllllllllllllllllyyyyyyyyyyyy boring?I'm sure it's not just me.I've been bored out of my head since I have no idea when.I know I should be doing other stuff..*cough*studying*cough*,but I just can't seem to get started.It's frustrating,I tell you!I've been going online throuhout the whole day,sulking on the sofa,making phone calls(only cause I kinda have to),eating stuff I can't even remember being consumed and yea,thinking non-stop.Usually thinking calms me down in a strange way,yet today it just agitates me a lot more.

I wish I could do stuff like these now:-

And so much more....

Voices

2008-06-04T15:47:00.001+08:00

God...which voice is YOU?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!!

100th POST!!

2008-06-04T14:37:00.003+08:00

Wooohooo!!This is officially my 100th post on this blog!!I'm actually surprised this blog lasted this long..Hahahaha...Anyway,thanks for being patient with my long delay on an update.Today's topic is..........Bittersweet Memories!!!Wooohooo!!Lol..that sounds like some cheesy and cliche title for a love song.I actually want to post pictures,but unfortunately,I can't seem to find my folder.Haven't been on the comp for ages!!Hahahaha... I'll go try dig a few up now.

Shucks...I seem to have exhausted all my photos.Hahaha...So....instead,Plan B!!!=P Which is....nothing actually.Hahahaha..

What I'm Up To Now...

2008-05-06T17:57:00.001+08:00

EXAMssssss!!!!!!

Cry

2008-04-27T20:18:00.003+08:00

Her breathing is rapid and deep.As she looks around the room,all she sees is darkness.Fear engulfs her and tears her apart.Tears start to form as she's standing there trying to find strength from somewhere deep within her;extremely deep within her.She stretches her arms in front of her trying to feel for something to hold on to.Moving tiny steps forward at a time,she tries to remember all the good times she had,all the happy and encouraging ones.She tries to remember the love and warmth that once radiated from her and towards her.She tries and tries,but fails.By now,her tears have turned to sobs.Her breathing is ragged and her nose gets stuffy.

She wants so much for the fear and pain to go away!So much!Everything she'd attempted to do failed.Everything she didn't do she regretted!The pain eating her inside was worse than any pain she'd ever felt before!Where was the peace she was promised?Where was the hope and dreams she'd been given?What had happened to all those people who had promised to love her,no matter what?Where was God?

In defeat,she falls to her knees.She covers her face with her hands and cries into them.She starts to scream,hoping for some sort of relief to wash over her,but no;she felt worse than before.Time and time again,she tried to right all the wrong.She looked for places to turn to in hope of finding refuge.Yet,nothing gave her more than momentary relief;a temporary high where she'd feel good about herself and her circumstances.Remembering all that,she saw the blade of the knife shining across the room as the soft rays of moonlight came in from the small rectangular mirror.

"God,I asked You so many times to take my life,Lord!I asked that You would just take me from this place that has put me through so much pain!But You DIDN'T!WHY?!I don't to live like this anymore!I don't want to live at all!I give up!"Weeping,she crawled across the room and reached for the knife.She cradled it in her arms,tears falling down her face onto her hands,onto the floor.This was it,she thought.No more....

She aimed the knife over her wrist.She felt the cold metal against her skin as she brought it down slowly to the target.She remembered something in her mind.A memory from many years ago.She had been learning how to ride the bicycle and her dad was teaching her.After many attempts,she had a whole new collection of cuts and bruises.She had cried and complained to her dad about it.She told him that it was no use,that she would never learn to ride it.Her dad had gently told her that she could do it.He told her that life was full of ups and downs,challenges,seasons that she would have to go through.He had also told her to never give up and always trust God and the people she loved.

Daddy had said,"I love you,little girl,and because I do,I know you can do it.I have faith in you.Won't you have a little faith in me?No matter what,I'm not going to give up on you...."

Crazy people I love!!=D

2008-04-18T16:16:00.002+08:00

Kristen and Emily
Regina and Sharon
Form 3 girls CG
Jasmine and Levina
Someone I don't know..O.o,Aziha,Lai Hwa,Nazurah,Sajrina.
Hahahaha!!!!Bottom row ; Lili aka Nollie,Izzati,Siew May,Shona,Jaya.
Sitting on top ; Lenna and me..=)
I love these gila people!!

PICTURES!!!!!=D

2008-04-18T15:57:00.003+08:00

Cheerleaders practising during school holidays.Such dedication!They make me proud!=D
Tug of War!!!Yea..don't spot me..hahaha=P
Tug of War again..
After all the events on Sport's Day!I love those 2 trophies!I still love God more for allowing us to get those trophies!!Wooohooo!!
....and after all the work.....we were tired....So we slept standing up..hahaha=)

That's Izzati,she's the captain for blue house(Marsh)

Sadly,I didn't take as many photos as I would've liked too.So that's it!=D

Results for Events Sport's Day Related

2008-04-17T21:01:00.003+08:00

Tug of War
-2nd place

Gimnastraeda/Cheerleading
-3rd place

March Past
-1st place

Long Jump
-1st place

100m
-2nd place

4x100m (kelas)
-2nd place

4x100m (terbuka)
-4th place(not good!)

and ULTIMATELY!!

House Placing
-2ND PLACE!!!!!!wooohooo!!!

*Pictures soon!!Together with tug of war pictures...=)

Needs,but not really wants..

2008-04-01T17:55:00.002+08:00

I really really need to start studying properly.Not just fool around and study last minute.I need to overcome procrastination and laziness.I need to focus on the important things for this year,and put on hold the less important things for a while.I need to stop thinking of excuses for myself and just face the music.

Something I NEED and WANT;God to help me through this year.

Tuggy Tug Tug

2008-03-31T17:51:00.004+08:00

Today we had our tarik tali matches.Each team had to compete with 4 other teams.It was so fun!!After so many years of not doing it,it felt so good being able to do it again!=P At first I was really really nervous.First,we went against blue house(Marsh) and we lost the first round.We were quite discouraged at first but,that didn't stop us from trying all our might again.It was a real challenge for me today.I really had to make sure that I didn't let discouragement bring my hopes down and at the same time make my team members feel discouraged to.I had to constantly encourage everyone even when I wasn't myself.That was tough.We managed to win the second and third round.We were jumping up and down and screaming and shouting like crazy people.So that was the first match.The second match was against the purple team(Cheng Kim).Honestly,by that time,almost all of us were already wiped out.So,I was quite worried that might bring us down.Amazingly,just as the whistle was blown,everyone seemed to gain their confidence back and we won that match!!=P By the third match,we were exhausted.We thought that our main competitors were Marsh,but if there's a lesson to be learnt from today,it would be 'Never Ever Ever judge a book by its cover!'.Turns out the real competition was the red team(Lee),which was our third match.We lost.Bad.I felt so pissed off.I'm quite a sore loser actually.I dislike losing a lot.A whole lot!Thankfully,I managed not to get into 'angry mode'.We won our fourth and last match for the day,which put us in 2nd place for now.Finals are next Monday.Hopefully with the experience and knowledge we've gained from today,we'll be able to get 1st next week!!

*Pictures will be up hopefully by next week!=)

Busy busy busy..

2008-03-27T18:21:00.002+08:00

I don't think I've ever been so relaxed with busyness surrounding me before.I have a gazillion things I have to organize,plan,prepare,finalize and for once,I feel like I can do it all.Usually the overwhelming feelings drown me and make me feel like I'm not capable enough to handle everything,but this time it just feels like everything is going to fall into place and nothing can stop me from getting everything done on time and just perfect-or at least as close to perfection as I can get anyway.It's amazing how God can bring so much peace.I've decided that I'm going to leave everything in God's hands and trust Him to help me make it all happen the way He wants it to.Having done that,I can really see the that things are slowly unfolding and I can finally see things happening.It's just such a relief to not have to worry.Thank God that He's God!=P

More Pictures...I love my new camera!!=P

2008-03-21T20:52:00.004+08:00

Sports houses' bulletin boards=) Marsh and Lowe...missing letters caused by the rain and wind!!
Lowe and Bunce.LOWE ROCKS!!!
Bunce and Cheng Kim.
Cheng Kim and Lee.
And just for kicks,one of my dogs,Syren taking shelter from the rain.Hahahah..

Activities during School Holidays=P

2008-03-21T16:44:00.003+08:00

Alia and me=)
Felicia and me=)
Wen Yee aka Chockie Girl
Wen Yee and Siew May
Athletes practicing for Sports Day

Of Farewells..

2008-02-05T22:25:00.000+08:00

Well,I thought since I'm already in quite an emo mood,why not do a bit of an emo post?This post is dedicated to the ever-filled-with-laughter Priscilla 'Harimau' Yap!!!!=P

Pris,you've been an amazing person I've gotten the chance to get to know,an amazing friend whose listened to my sob stories,my silly stories,my emo stories and basically everything I've ever had to say.I'm thankful to God for allowing us to spend the time that we've spent with one another and all the other gila people in YC.I'm truly grateful that I've been able to share parts of my life with you.I'm really going to miss you when you leave(and even now),but I know God has something great in store for You in Aussie and I want you to know that I'll be supporting you in all you do(even when I might think whatever you're doing is silly=P).Don't ever feel like you're leaving anything behind here,other than wonderful memories and blessings that is.Keep pushing forward to your designated future.I know and proclaim that you will be a mighty influence to the people around you in every aspect of your 'new' life.I wish you and your family all the best in Aussie,with the settling down,the furnishing of the new house,meeting new people,school,your parent's careers,your sister too!I pray with all my heart that you will all be at peace knowing that God will be watching all of you and helping you every step if the way!!!I love you so so so so so much,Pris!!!!!!!!!!!!!=D

Happy New Year!!!

2008-01-01T23:20:00.000+08:00

Well,since it's the 1st of January,I'll just do a really obvious post regarding the new year by listing down my New Year's Resolutions.

1. Better relationship with my family.(Not that it's bad now,I just know it can get a lot better.)

2. Having amazing experiences and meeting new people in CG and church,as well as getting to know people better than I already do.

3. Having a closer and more intimate relationship with God.

4. Hoping I can juggle all my responsibilities and NOT break down trying.

5. Do well for SPM,whatever well means to me. (Haha.)

6. Get my driver's license at the END OF THE YEAR. (Shucks,why wasn't I born earlier in the year??)

7. Take more photos of the things I hold dear,collect more 'holdable' memories.

8. Maintain all my current friendships and improve them.

9. Write more.

10. Move into my new house and hopefully manage to decorate my room and make it look cool.

11. Save more money so that I don't have to be stingy at the end of the year.

Hmmm,right now that's all I can think of.So, I'll say Goodnight here.Goodnight!=]

Thankfulness.

2007-12-20T17:11:00.000+08:00

Lord,I thank You that You have placed Your hand of protection upon the lives of those whom I care about as well as my own.You are truly the Lord who reigns over my life and every circumstance in my life,I place in Your mighty hands.I thank You that You have never let me down and that You have promised to forever be by my side to walk through every step in life with me.I thank You that You have absolute power over every aspect of this world You have created and that I can place my complete trust in You,Lord.For all that has taken place,I pray You help them work out and somehow just be Your will,Lord.I pray that every struggle be overcome and be a reason to glorify Your name even more!Despite all that has happened,Lord,I love You.Every experience be laid down at Your feet and surrendered to You.Every dream be blessed by You holy name and I know they will have their place in reality.For eveything,Lord,I thank You.I love You,Daddy!In Jesus' name,Amen.

Ode to Nonsensicalities!!!

2007-12-06T18:02:00.000+08:00

Hello!My name is Elena Lai.I like nonsense.I speak of many types of nonsense.What is nonsense?This is nonsense.If you don't like nonsense,go away.If you can't handle nonsense,go away.I is like nonsense!I is nonsense!Wakakakakaka!!!!Nonsense nonsense nonsense nonsense!!!Come and do the Nonsense Chant with me!!Hahahaha!!Nonsense nonsense nonsense nonsense nonsense chant!!!!!!!!!!!Bye....For more nonsensicalities,talk to me when I'm HIGH!!!!waahahahahahahahahaha!!!

Miri..

2007-11-25T20:05:00.001+08:00

So,I went to Miri for about a week with Rose,James and Dalvin.It was just great fun;hanging out with the leaders of SIB Canada Hill,visiting places in Miri,helping Rose out with sessions,playing around with Dalvin,James and Pastor John's daughters,Dorothea and Tiffany.Pastor John is the pastor who hosted us throughout the whole trip.He's really funny and just so much fun to be around.Hmm..I guess what we did there was mainly have fun.Pastor John's house is about a 5 minute drive from the beach and about 10 minutes walk from the house.So,on the last 2 days,James,Dalvin and I walked there and just played like little kids.Hahaha,we buried Dalvin's feet in the sand and attempted to stop the waves from destroying our 'masterpiece'.It was hilarious!!We were screaming and shouting for the waves to go away 'cause they were so crazy and big!I really miss Dorothea and Tiffany a whole lot.They're like my little sisters.=) I'll post the pictures of them soon.I think we played Uno with them almost every night.Sigh,the experience there was just so nice,although it doesn't sound like much.I guess there's no real highlight of the trip because every second there was just so unforgettable.I know it sounds corny,but it's the truth.=D

After Exam Activities

2007-10-30T15:54:00.001+08:00

Finals have been over for quite some time now,which is a huge joy!The not very exciting thing about it is that we still have to complete our syllabus for Add Maths,Chemistry,History and Biology.Other than that,we do nothing in class except goof off and entertain each other with our crazy 'performances'.Today was especially nutsy!!It started of with the Prefects' Council Meet,where majority of the prefectorial board was absent.So the Head of Departments gave their respective reports and we did what we usually do in Council Meets;complain about the students!!!Hahahaha!!Yea,so after that we went back to our classes(we missed 1st period thanks to Council Meet =P).Since the attendance for practically all the classes except the Form 5s were so bad,most of the classes combined.4E combined classes with 4M,creating 4ME!!!=P haha..At one point of the day,4E,my class,went back to our own classroom,where we were joking around.The clowns were mainly Jaya,Izzati and me.=) Hehehe..we played 'kung fu',trying to act out parts of the movie Shaolin Soccer,but failing miserably due to excessive laughter,causing a lot of people to just break down laughing.Jaya and I challenged each other to a game called.....I have no idea what it's called,but it's the one where u play scissors paper stone,then the winner takes a step back,and the loser has to stretch their legs to reach the winner.If you don't get it,its ok.Maybe I'll show you one day.Hahaha...I won every single round!!!Wooohooo!!!Then I challenged I Izzati,and I won again!!!Wooooohooo!!!=P Then us clowns,sat on Aien's and my table,playing aeroplane.I was the pilot,and the other two clowns were my passengers.We had lots of sound effects from the other clown-wannabes...ROFL!!!=P JK...So,to sum the whole day up,there was a lot of laughing.=D Today definitely makes it onto my list of Great School Memories.Hehehe...

Random Query

2007-10-27T20:31:00.001+08:00

If Chinese people who can't speak Chinese are referred to as "bananas",what are Indian people who can't speak Tamil called?

Tag

2007-10-19T19:20:00.001+08:00

Lenna tagged me....

Your REAL name:
Elena Lai Pui Man

Your GANGSTA name: (first three letters of your name and izzle)
Eleizzle...errr....doesn't sound very gangsta-ish..

Your DETECTIVE name: (fav color and fav animal)
Red Dog....ala...should change my fav animal to bull...hahaha

Your SOAP OPERA name: (your middle name and the street you live on)
oh yo.....so mega weird!!!Pui Man Robson....hahahahahahaha

Your STAR WARS name: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2letters of your first)
Laiel...eh..i kinda like it..hahaha

SUPERhERO name(2nd fav colour and fav drink)
Blue H2O

IRAQI name: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your lastname, any letter of your middle name, 2nd letter of your mom's maiden name, 3rd letter of you dad's name, 1st letter of a cousin's first name, and last letter of your mom's name)
Linamlg.....lol...can anyone pronounce it?

Your GOTH name: (bloody and your pet's name)
Bloody Syren/MooMoo/Paris???none of them sound goth-ish...

Your MALAY name (first 3 letters of your last name and add "ah" behind)
Laiah....lai ah lai ah....!!!lol

Your MATSALLEH name (first 3 letters of your name and add "y" behind)
Eley....

Your CHINESE name (chong and 4 letters from your last name and lyn)
chong lai lyn....last name only has 3 letters..

Your INDIAN name(your first name and add wary or maniam behind)
Elenawary...ala...i think elenamaniam nicer..hahah

Your SEX name(add x in front of your name and another x behind)
Xelenax.....errrr....cacatnyer...

TAGGED PPL:
everyone who reads this!!!hahaha!!!

Rise and Fall

2007-10-11T18:34:00.000+08:00

We were feeling so good!!!Anxious and nervous,but still,feeling extremely good.After all the hard work the past few days,the shouting and getting mixed up,then getting things right again,we didn't get to do Stomp.We were so excited,so hyped up and stuff,and they cancelled all the performances.Sorry if I sound whiny,but it's really disappointing!!So,I was in a really bad mood today.The teachers took such a long time to do their speeches.There's nothing wrong with that especially since it's their retirement,but I'm upset at the fact that the teachers didn't plan it more carefully,that they didn't anticipate things like this to happen and totally smushed our little happy moment.Lol....sigh.....and they want us to do it after the holidays.I can guarantee most of us will forget what we're supposed to play by then.I know I would,what with my horrid memory.Whatever it is,I'll be okay again tomorrow.I thank God for tomorrows...=)

STOMP!!!!

2007-10-10T18:26:00.000+08:00

This past week,my class and Levina's class have been practising really hard for 3 of our teachers' farewell performance tomorrow.We'll be doing a simplified version of Stomp.Levina came up with the beats and stuff.Everyone in both our classes were just so proud,amazed,i dunno what of her.She really put in so much effort into it,helping all of us with our parts.It's been great fun,making noise in the physics lab(I'm still surprised none of the teachers came in to tell us to sssshhhh=P).So,we have 3 parts,excluding Levina's part.It's mega noisy but so cool!!!We started off using the metre rules in our lab as sticks.Some of the rulers are in really really really bad condition now =X,and there are dents on the chairs and tables from our 1st practice.Today,we brought in all our props which mostly consisted of household stuff.Levina brought shuttle cock cases,hangers,tupperwares,and this watering can which she loves so much.Then,some people brought chopsticks,the sticks from the flags,the big wooden pencils and stuff like that.We practiced practically the whole of yesterday and today.Only TWO days!!!!But,then again,the performance isn't very long.Still,it helped that everyone managed to pick things up fast and cooperate(most of the time).I'm just really hoping we do well and have fun tomorrow.=D

MONG CHA CHA!!!!MC kotakness...HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

2007-10-08T17:47:00.000+08:00

Hi!I'm bored!How are YOU?!?!?!?!?!!?!=D *big huge grin* i'm at home,are you at home?I'm sitting beside levina who is sitting beside me!!!!!wooohoooo!!!levina says,"SWEAT!".Levina is holding A BLUE HANKY!!!!which she used to swat her leg in school.She says,"YAY!!!".And is now watching me type this.I say,"YAY!".And we both,"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!".
Ok,now we have stopped,"HAHAHAHA!!!"But after typing this,we start,"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!" again.The levina is a bit blur.We are sitting at the dining table,smelling my maid's cooking.My maid says nothing.We are waiting for my mommy to wake up so that we can use the DVD player in the bedroom,but my mommy is sick...=( We are now staring at the screen,waiting for something to happen....

STARE

STARE

STARE

STARE

STILL STARING

OK!!!STOP STARING!!!
Ok,so now we're....still staring...OOOOOO!!!!Mommy's coming down the stairs!!!!And she puts her things on the table!!!and she walks into the kitchen!!!and we go,"HAHAHAHAHHA!" again.Now time to watch Secret...bye!!!!!!!!!HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Essay on Life=)

2007-10-05T18:25:00.000+08:00

http://www.helium.com/tm/631262/lifeone-simple-meanings-different

As the saying goes...

2007-09-13T18:29:00.000+08:00

I have no idea how the saying goes...Hahaha...So,my sister's in this BM story telling contest in school and my dad has been saying,"Tuan-tuan dan Puan-puan,pondan-pondan dan ah kua-ah kua..." these past few days.Yep...my dad....He's insane,and I love the insane dude who's the man of the house right now.Hahaha..I love the little men of the house too!!!Brianna and Farrella=P hahaha..i love renaming my brothers.I love my crazy family..=)

Life

2007-09-10T17:48:00.001+08:00

Lately everything around me just circles around the topic of LIFE.I honestly don't know what my views of life is.It's different all the time;changing according to my moods and situations.Sometimes I think life is scarier than death.When I was younger I used to be really scared of at the thought of death.I'm actually amazed I'm still alive today.I used to think that I would die really young.It's weird how my thoughts were so morbid at such a tender and young age.It's like that was a completely different person altogether.I'm not proud of who I used to be,but I know that without that part of my life,I probably wouldn't be who I am today.I probably wouldn't even be as accepting to things as I am now.Life is scary sometimes,beautiful but scary.Life is so precious and such an amazing gift from God.Life is also filled with unexpected twists and turns,so many ups and downs.The 'not knowing what can happen at anytime' part of life just really tests my faith in God.I keep wanting God to show me where to go in life and what exactly to do.It's so hard to completely trust Him 100% and that really makes me get so frustrated about myself.I know He's so amazing and so loving,but...why can't I just have enough faith to trust Him with everything in my life?Why do I keep questioning Him?He's shown me so many miracles already,why am I not completely convinced He'll keep me safe?Sometimes I wish I could install that in my head like a program.Then I'll never forget that and never underestimate His love for me.I love You,Lord....I really do...

My prayer..

2007-08-30T18:38:00.000+08:00

Lord,I'm sorry I'm such a coward.I'm sorry I am so self-conscious.I'm sorry my faith in YOU can be so much bigger.I'm sorry I don't know how to handle the mistakes I've made.I'm sorry I can't look away from my past yet.I'm sorry I find it so hard that You have truly forgiven me for my sins.I'm sorry I have so much to be sorry for!!!Lord,I really don't see how You can love me so much.I don't know what You see in me and why You even bother caring for me.It's so frustrating when in my times of trouble,I don't turn to You before everyone else,that I don't search for You first.It's even more annoying that I have to be reminded of how great You are despite everything You've ever done for me and in me.I've become so attuned to living life as a routine,going through everything the same way,prayer the exact same things sometimes,and saying I'm so busy with this and that that I become so ignorant towards You,Lord.It's so hard to just come and be in that place of wanting to wait on You,and we end up making You wait on us even after all the prompting from the Holy Spirit.I know Lord,that You won't wait long for us,You have so many other people to choose from to carry out Your plans.Lord,I just feel so worthless right now.I feel so guilty of things that have just resurfaced in my life.Lord,they've just turned my life upside down,made my perception on things just run all over the place.
Lord,just take total control over me,just take control over my life.I give You my life,Lord.I surrender it all to You.Lord,help me be who You want me to be.I pray all this in Your mighty name,Amen.

Loving someone...

2007-08-15T19:01:00.000+08:00

Loving someone is never easy.Loving someone is more than just having strong feelings for a certain person,loving a person means you are willing to sacrifice more than you are actually willing to.At least,that what it looks like to me.Loving someone is having the courage to bare your soul to that person and you aren't scared to share your everything with that person.You're ready to share all you have with that person and you're ready to fight for that person.
The greatest example of love would of course have to be of God,the father and God,the son.
Jesus knew the purpose God had put in His life.Despite knowing what He would have to go through on earth-the pain,suffering,tests,rejection,death-He went through it all anyway.He trusted God to know what was right for Him and all of God's creations.Jesus was tempted in many ways,but He never once went against God's commands because He knew God wouldn't like it.As humans,we find it so hard to follow God's commands every time.Sometimes temptation gets the better of us and we end up sinning.If we love God,we should try even harder to resist whatever temptations there are in our lives and learn to lead a life that would be pleasing to God.It's hard,no doubt,but love is so powerful.It's something God has never stopped stressing throughout the whole bible.With love in our hearts,we can stay strong against any attacks of the enemy.We have God's love upon our lives.Jesus went through all that He did so that we could lead sinless lives,so that God could forgive us for our sins.Shouldn't we be doing just that?

Back again..

2007-08-10T18:01:00.000+08:00

My busy busy busy schedules are back once again.I'm actually thankful for it because I've been lazing around and procrastinating A LOT this past few weeks.My attitude of not wanting to do anything was really getting on my nerves because I knew I could put in so much more effort into my schoolwork.This past week has been madness.I'm someone who loves to sleep,so when I don't get enough of sleep I tend to get grumpy.A whole week of sleeping earliest at 12pm and latest at 3am because of folios and moral assignments.Finally it's over,at least for now,and I can go back to sleeping at 10pm and getting up feeling good;not sitting on my bed for 10 minutes before my brain actually starts to function properly.
My teacher chose me for MSSKL Merentas Desa.I'm not sure why because I'm not a long distance runner,but I'm up for a challenge,so I don't mind.Today we had our first training session in school.No one told me about it until I reached school in the morning.One of my juniors asked me if I brought my PJ clothes,and I didn't.Thank God I had my was wearing my school shorts under my skirt,so I just had to find a shirt.My teacher gave us 45 minutes to complete the whole 5km distance.I was worried I wouldn't beat the time,and at 1 point I thought I was already over the time limit.When I reached the ending point,my teacher told me everyone finished within the time limit.I was so happy!And I was only about 4 minutes later than the 1st girl.Whee...the training I did on my own really helped.I found out where my weaknesses were today,so I know what to focus on now.I have to thank my "coach" for helping me with the training. =D

The Amazing MotorBus!!!!and My sister's super strength!!!

2007-08-02T21:57:00.000+08:00

MotorBus...and Farrel...=D

Trying to act macho..sigh...

Now,this is seriously MACHO!!!!=P

Enough macho-ness..Thank you Amelia..=D

Save Me!!!!

2007-08-02T21:40:00.000+08:00

Save me from my brothers!!!!Ahhhh!!!!=P Hahahaha..there was this frog or toad or whatever that has been taking refuge in our house for the past few days.I came back from school 2 days ago and it was at the foot of the stairs leading to the dining room.I saw it,and guess what??I screamed like a mad woman!!!=P Hahahaha...Running up the stairs and jumping around saying "KATAK!!!KATAK!!!!".Thinking back,it was hilarious!!My brother,Brian just found the frog again.He was sitting beside me talking to me for about 5 minutes and I had no idea he was holding the frog in his hands!!When I finally noticed it,thank God he wasn't beside me.I would have started a screaming frenzy again.Right,so that's Brian for you.He used to want to be a vet by the way,so that would explain why he's not afraid of animals.

Let's move on to Farrel now.Farrel is probably planning on being an inventor.That still needs to be confirmed.Yea,anyway,he was playing around with his toy truck and then he took the motorcycle helmet and put it on top the bus.Alas!!The motorbus was created.Or has it already been created?O.o???Anyways..I'll post the pictures later..=D

Siblings

2007-08-01T21:35:00.000+08:00

One thing I've always loved is seeing people be with their siblings.You get to see that special bond formed between them is such a welcoming sight.Even if the person doesn't have a sibling,you see that bond,that connection between that person and his/her really close friend.Of course,nothing can give you the exact same feeling you get when you're with your real sibling,but that special relationship with your friends are something amazing as well.I'm not close to all my siblings.I have 3 younger siblings by the way.I'm the eldest of us 4.I'm especially close to my brother,Brian,who is right after me.Amelia,my sister after Brian really looks up to me.I can tell by the way she's always asking me for advice with her schoolwork,what activities she should join in school and what she should be doing on that day.It's easier talking to Brian since our age gap is smaller and he's going through a lot of things I've already gone through with my parents.That helps me be more understanding towards what he's facing now,and it's easier to help him as well.I love the fact that he isn't shy to hug me or show affection in public.Sometimes I need to nudge him for a hug,but most days he gives them willingly. =P My sister is more of the baby in the family than my youngest brother,Farrel is.Farrel is very independent.He's the only one out of 4 of us who didn't cry on our first day of kindergarten.He's really sociable and makes friends easily.He can be quite irritating sometimes as well.He's outspokenness intimidates his classmates sometimes.My naughty brother is only 7,and he's already kissed 3 girls his age.Such a nonsense. =P Amelia on the other hand,is the shy,conservative type of girl.She can be really sweet when she wants to,but when she's mad,it's like World War 3 is here.She's extremely smart and hardworking,she's also really good in sports,like me!!!=P Hahahaha...all my siblings are really good at sports actually.I love them all really really really much.We do quarrel and fight sometimes,but it's never made our relationship with one another waver ,instead,it's made us so much closer to each other.We're learning more about each other everyday,building our trust towards one another,learning to be more understanding towards each other and loving each other even more everyday.=D

Making choices...

2007-07-31T18:41:00.000+08:00

...are never easy.For me it has been especially difficult to make decisions regarding my school activities.Every year,we have to choose our own clubs and stuff like that.Since Form 1 I've wanted to join the athletics team in my school.Since Form 1,so many things held me back.Things like not having anyone to accompany me in the club,the fact that I don't like the club teacher and she despises me,and now,the fact that I have only one more year in MGS and I still have so many other clubs I want to join;Handball,Volleyball and some other stuff.Sigh,sigh,sigh....Don't know which to choose.So little time left for High School,have to really make the most out of it.One thing to look forward to tomorrow,Volleyball match between my friends!!Whee...

MGSKL CANTEEN DAY 2007!!!

2007-07-26T19:43:00.000+08:00

VENUE: MGSKL(near Lake Garden and Masjid Negara)

DATE: 28th July 2007,Saturday

TIME: 9:00-12:45(If u ask am or pm..try using common sense..)

ACTIVITIES: Haunted House(make sure u come,except guys.Guys aren't allowed in the Haunted house.so cacat!!!sighzzz!!!!),Dance Floor(umm..yea..u dance),LOADS N LOADS OF FOOD!!!,Mazes,games,stuff la..just come n see la..

Come la..it's to raise money for our school.Every year we have to do something so raise money for the school since the government doesn't support us financially 100%.So yea,come support us and be a kind and giving soul=D...hahaha

Random pics..

2007-07-26T19:30:00.001+08:00

Amiera,Santira,me,Jaya,Aziera after Prefect's Installation,in our class.

Izzati,me and Jaya.Izzati look so blur..hahaha..

Sumaiya,Levina,me,and Lenna.Notice I don't have hands?=P

Levina,Lenna Kah Wei and me,on a tree.I think this was taken in Form 2.=D

Kah Wei,me,Levina and Sumaiya at the APICTA announcement dinner.That was when we found out we were going to Macau together.=D

Canada vs Singapore

2007-07-20T19:59:00.000+08:00

The two countries I'll almost 100% be going to do college in.I was just talking with my mom just now about why she wanted me to do Form 6 instead of just going straight to college.I had no idea she'd already plan so much for my future.I mean,I know she's thought about it and all,but I guess the fact that she's never discussed it with me before this just made me oblivious to it.It being my mom thinking about what I was going to do after SPM.Well,she told me the reason she wanted me to do Form 6 is so that if I end up going to Singapore,then I won't have to take O levels and can get started straight away with A levels.SPM;it used to be like a fairytale to me.I never thought I'd in a sense make it to this level.Not making it not as in not achieving results good enough,but not being alive.I used to think that I'd die young for some weird and morbid reason.So yeah,enough of my extremely 'unique' mind.I really can't believe that I'm turning 16 this year.I can barely remember what I was like in primary school.Being a teenager used to seem so faraway and I just couldn't wait to get my IC.My IC was like proof that I'm finally a teen.Now,I wish I could turn back time and just be a kid again.Things were so much more easier;living a naive and simple life where things that used to be so important then just seem so silly now.The world look so huge to me last time.Even a car ride that lasted 20 minutes felt like 3 hours of non-stop fun,looking at the scenery and imagining I could one day drive.Now,in probably about a year or so,I'll really be able to drive(if I pass my driving test),and even driving won't thrill me anymore.Growing up just takes all the wonder out of life.Everything that seemed like such a task and challenge when we were younger now seem so insignificant.At least,that's how I look at it.Now,thinking of college,it still feels a little far away,yet,I can tell time is just going to breeze by and then I'll be in a different country with a whole new group of people,learning new things and leaving a lot of things behind(temporarily).The thought scares me a lot.I guess life is about changes.No change,I don't think that's possible at all.So,whatever changes take place in my life in time to come,I really want to do my best to embrace it and not shirk away from it.

Biology...

2007-07-18T16:33:00.000+08:00

WE DISSECTED RATS!!!!!!Yup,in Biology lesson today we actually dissected rats.We were divided into 5 groups and each group had their own rat.I was in the same group as Jaya,Lenna,Shona and Siew May.We were all really freaked out.The rats were so cute and we felt so heartless and cruel.Our first instructions were to nail the rat onto the plate thingy it was on.The first image that came to my head was the scene from Passion of Christ and I nearly felt sick.Thank God I didn't!We spent like 5 minutes just holding the hammer and the nail,not wanting to poke holes into the poor rat's tiny paws,but knowing it was something we had to do,we nailed the paws after teacher helped us with the 2 top paws.We cut the skin,then the I have no idea what and finally opened up the whole belly part of the rat.Then,we had to nail the skin to the plate as well to make sure it wouldn't get folded and obstruct the view of the rat's organs.The heart was still pumping and it was so tiny.The small intestine and stomach were the most disgusting looking.Then teacher came to inspect on our rat.She took 2 of the apparatus and started shifting the organs around;from the right side of the rat to the left and back again.Then she showed us the kidneys,which were actually hidden under all the other organs,which explains why she was shifting the organs around.They looked so mushy and soft,wherever the apparatus thing touched the stomach,it would leave a mark like when we poke something into plasticine,except it goes back into shape.Then,we also had to check the gender of a rat.At first,before dissecting the rat,we thought it was a male,since there was the 'thing' there.After dissecting,we found out it was actually a female.We saw the fallopian tubes and ovaries.The ovaries were so extremely tiny.Jaya,Siew May and I had to leave the class earlier to go for prefect's recess.And that was when my teacher said they were going to dissect the head to see the brain!!So unfair!!So we had no choice but be good prefects and go eat and prepare for duty.Jaya and me,being in the same department,breezed through our duty and ran to the lab again.Unfortunately,when we reached the lab,they had already thrown the rats into the dustbin and were washing everything up.Good thing our teacher let us dig through the rubbish to look for the right rat.They only dissected 1 or 2 of the rats in the head,so we had to dig through the gloves and the other rats to look for the 'right rat'.Then after a few minutes of digging,we finally found it!!Hooray..the brain was also very tiny.All in all,it turned out to be a very good experience.I still feel a little bad for having to cut the poor rat open.Eventually,the rat's heart stopped beating.Bye bye rat...=(

Pregnant Women

2007-07-17T15:15:00.000+08:00

During English,we had to talk about the types of food growing children,teenagers,pregnant women and elderly people needed.We were given yesterday to prepare,but as usual,my group just decided to wing it.Despite the lack of preparation,our teacher said we were quite good.=D Then while another group was presenting their discussion,the whole class got sidetracked and started focusing on the topic of pregnant women.Our teacher told us about well,childbirth and how she had to go through a ceaserian or however you spell it.This is the down side of being in a girls school,the teachers just go on and on about this particular topic in very detailed and accurate description.They have no mercy on us because 'You girls will go through it one day.Don't worry,it isn't AS PAINFUL as it sounds'.Right,that makes me feel so much better.My friend Jaya,she was so funny!!Whenever my teacher described how they sew the wound after ceaserian,she screamed so loudly until everyone in class was laughing so much.She kept saying,"So painful!So painful!".My teacher was laughing so much too.So now,my whole class is freaked out at the idea of getting pregnant,including me.=P Then towards the end of the class,the last group did their presentation.It ended up to be a debate session.Everyone kept disagreeing with whatever my friend Thaaraniy was saying.It was so fun!We were supposed to write an essay,but in the end,we ran out of time because of we spent so much time debating and squealing.I love my classmates..=D Being in an all girls school really isn't that bad.Those who think otherwise,too bad for you.=D

My beautifooooo badge=D

2007-07-13T18:36:00.000+08:00

I like my silver badge..hahaha=P

2007/08 Prefectorial Board Installation...Tick...

2007-07-13T17:32:00.000+08:00

Yupzz...today was my school's prefect installation day.It was the fastest installation I have ever experienced,and I've experienced a few before.I have no idea why,but it feels like time is just water flowing over my fingers;something I experience,but can never really get a hold on.So,this year I'm Head of Cleanliness,something I never thought I'd be in charge of.I'm so NOT clean.Hahaha,but I love my senior Ellana,and my 2 partners,Jaya and Cynthia.They're such clowns and really reliable people.They make picking up rubbish all over the school so much easier and quite fun honestly.In MGS,we have a tradition of passing the torch,or rather the candle from the outgoing board of prefects to the upcoming board.Then,the new Head girls light some candles and pass it to their Ex-cos.It has been a fun week of fooling around while practicing for the installation and goofing off when we're really supposed to be cleaning and decorating the school hall.Plus,we missed so many lessons.Hahahah..and the teachers couldn't scold us for it.=P Now that the installation is done,that's one thing I can tick off my list of things to do.The next 2 items on my list are the last CF meeting of the year and worship team auditions,both of which are really important to me and are making me feel so extremely nervous.This CF meeting is mega important because it's to steer the Christians in my school back to having the right attitude about CF.God has just really stirred my spirit a lot about this particular thing.I'm so sick and tired of seeing Christians in my school who'd rather do other things than put God first.School is another place where you're supposed to shine for God,not just for total and complete fun and fooling about.Just because our pastors and parents don't see us in school as much as they do in church is not a reason for us to not worship God in school.You're supposed to be everything you can be for God in every aspect,every place of your life,NOT just in church where people see you and expect it of you.What about what GOD expects of YOU??Don't you think that's the most important reason?During Fire Up,God really challenged me to trust Him and put this event in His hands and I do trust Him with all my heart,soul and might.Plans might not be going as smoothly as I'd like them to be,but that doesn't matter,because I know that this is what God wants to see happening in my school;His children coming back to the Lord,turning away from the worldly things and just worshiping Him again.I get so disappointed seeing the CF members having the attitude of 'I'd rather do something else than attend CF'.If I myself am this disappointed at them,how disappointed is God at them?What makes me even more disappointed is the fact that I myself tend to get drifted away from God and to the ways of man.I'm not perfect,Lord.No where near it and I can never be,but Lord,I want to be the best that I can be for You.Whenever I stumble or fall,I feel so ashamed,so full of anger at my own self for not being able to do things for myself sometimes.I get so tempted to cry out for Your help,but it feels like I'm a burden to You sometimes.Lord,I know You want to be involved in my life in every way possible,I know now You want me to call for Your help and to share all my problems with You.Sometimes it's just hard,knowing that so many other people have problems way bigger than mine.It just makes me feel inadequate for seeking Your help over tiny matters sometimes,but I know Lord,You'll still help me and be there for me.I love You,Jesus!I'm going to push all those insecurities away and just focus on You.Nothing else matters except You.

WHY????????(X10000)

2007-07-09T18:54:00.000+08:00

How is it possible that people have the heart,or should I say brains to murder anyone???Murder is one thing,burning the poor person up and then chopping the body up and scattering it around???What do you call that?I CALL IT PURE STUPIDITY/INSANITY/BRAINLESSNESS/HEARTLESSNESS/(insert any other insulting word here).I was so shocked and disgusted by today's front page news(on the Star).How does a person live with himself/herself knowing he/she did something that horrible and plain wicked??How do you NOT feel bad when you're doing it??What is wrong with these people's minds?Are they mentally retarded or just plain SICK!!!It's terrible to know that they are living in the same country as you and who knows how many others are out there in the world.How do they bare the guilt?Or are they immune to guilt or something??Reading the article just made me so mad.I was furious and just wanted to punch the stupid person.She was just a little girl and they had to do that to her!!!!!!!Dude!!!If you wanted to hurt someone so badly,just try slapping yourself across the face REALLY REALLY REALLY HARD 100 TIMES!!!That should leave you a mark for quite some time.Why take away the life of an innocent child?If getting a slap is already painful enough,imagine YOURSELF getting burnt and chopped like some piece of meat!!I really can't imagine what's in your retarded head!!!!!!You just piss me off so much!!!!!!!

I love...

2007-07-09T17:58:00.000+08:00

being loved by God
being in God's presence
the Holy Spirit stirring me up inside
my relationship with God
being God's child
the fact that I was created by God
that I have a huge family all around the world through Christ
knowing I have a purpose
worshiping God
learning more and more about God
knowing God more and more
talking to God
God....

Proper

2007-07-08T20:12:00.001+08:00

OK!Time for a proper post now.So I went for FIRE UP!!! and it was AWESOME!!!!Pastor Michael was hilarious.I was practically on the floor,laughing so hard at his jokes and stories.Right..was supposed to tell you more about it..but I feel emo now.*whacks forehead* So,I'll just tell you the funny stuff that took place and save the deep eye bawling stuff for another day.=D We took the bus from church to GT.We being Levina,Kim and me.We met Li Yan and Levina's cg member there.In the bus,they played westlife songs.I highly dislike westlife!!!!Levina used to love westlife so much when she was younger,she still does actually.So she was singing along with her cg member and dancing weird dances.They were also making funny sounds that made some people just turn to stare at them with the 'o.O??' expression.Kim took out her phone and recorded part of it.Ask her if you want to see another one of Levina's cacatedness =P. So, after everything right,Levina,Kim and I were the last ones there together with Joel(who left soon after) and Rose,who was waiting for us.Levina,being the brainiac that she is,sat on the wheelchair and started rolling around,or attempted to at least.She couldn't steer it.It kept going round and round in the same direction.I was laughing so much until tears came out.Then we started jumping around the place-it was huge and dark and super echo-y- so that the mosquitoes wouldn't suck our blood.In the end,we followed Rose to the South Pacific Restaurant in around PJ since it was already super late.Levina's mom picked us up from there.During the ride there,we sat on Rose's car seat.Let me elaborate on that.Rose's car seat was folded since half the keyboard was poking out of the boot.The boot wasn't big enough to fit the keyboard,so half of it was protruding through where the seat was supposed to be.So it was also sitting on the seat with Levina and me.We looked like super tall people whose bodies were too long for the car until our heads were bent to one side since there wasn't enough space to sit upright and not be stopped by the ceiling.Hahaha..If you don't get it,it's ok.I'm not sure I'm speaking english right now either.Feeling a little light headed and my eye is swollen.WHOOPEE!!I shall leave the computer now..Farewell!!!=D

Just Had To..hahaha

2007-07-08T20:10:00.000+08:00

You Are 12% Girly

Um... you're a guy, right? If not, you're the most boyish girl in the world.
And for you, that's probably the ultimate compliment.

How Girly Are You?

I laughed so hard reading the description...

Elena Doodles...

2007-07-06T19:03:00.000+08:00

Something I did during 2 periods of Physics and 2 periods of Biology.We're dissecting rats next week!!!AHHHH!!!Excited or Terrified??

Of Amazingly Ordinary Days

2007-07-05T16:13:00.000+08:00

It's so amazing when sometimes you're just going through your day and the simple things just trigger the Holy Spirit inside us.When you feel like today's nothing special and it's just another day you have to spend doing the same things again.I've never felt so connected to the world like I do now.It's like having a private movie playing in my head showing me scenes of the many people around the world.Faces I don't know just appear and it's as if I can feel the things they're feeling now;happiness,pain,anger,frustration,love,sympathy.I love the fact that even though there are over I don't know how many billion people in the world,we're all connected in some special and unique way.We all have similar thoughts,opinions,feelings about at least one thing in our lives.God just gets you thinking about the thing you want to do the most despite the tight schedules and the busyness we tend to get caught up in.He starts questioning me about my plan for the future and how committed I will be to get that plan started.Journeys are never easy,but they are very simple.A journey,to me,is something you willingly commit yourself to and no matter what,you keep to it,always striving to overcome any rocky roads and tall mountains to see what's on the other end of the road.A journey has its ups and downs.I used to be so scared when I start falling(not literally),I always have thoughts of giving up and impossibilities that I won't be able to break free of.I have to trust God.I have to stop being ashamed of myself and my abilities,and accept them as God's gifts to me.I know God has a plan for my future,a purpose for my existence.My faith needs to be strong and unwavering.I have the love of my God with me no matter what the circumstances are.Lord,I love You......

Diao niao niao...=P

2007-07-04T14:56:00.000+08:00

I don't know what's going on in my head.It's so blurrrrrr.....I feel blurr......wheeee....got so much nonsense I want to say but I shall not.Hahaha...Can't wait for FIRE UP!!You'd better be going!!Yes, YOU!!!The one reading this now.You don't go I whack you.=P Hahaha...

FIRE UP!!!!!!

2007-07-04T14:16:00.001+08:00

Wilderness Camp Langkawi 07!!!!!!!!Team VEGA!!!

2007-06-16T17:17:00.001+08:00

Day 1
At the base camp.
Meeting everyone for the 1st time.

Our trainers,Abang Boy(the super poser wearing the cap=P)

Kak Nora...

Seperating our things to put into our camping bags.

We had limited amount of things that we could bring.The only electronic object we could bring was our cameras,and I didn't have one.Sigh...

On the boat,going to our 1st camp site.

1st Camp Site,Tiloy Island.

Taklimat by out trainers.What's taklimat in English?I forgot..hahaha

Setting up our campsite,the kitchen roof.

This is what our 5 star toilet looked like after building it up.

Our tent for sleeping and changing clothes.Not exactly private or comfortable,and it didn't keep out the rain either.

The 1st hygiene team building the toilet.We each took turns to be the hygiene team,cooking team and leaders.The hygiene team was in charge of the toilet and washing things up.The cooking team,in charge of cooking of course and the leaders told us what to do and made sure we kept to the schedule and didn't exceed the time limits we were given for our duties,at least they tried.When in Malaysia,follow Malaysian timing;always late.Hahahaha

The views from our 1st campsite.Rainbow;a sign of hope.I really needed that sign that day,I was feeling so homesick.

A little blurry,but still a very beautiful picture of the sunset.

2nd Day at Tiloy Island

Learing how to handle the kayak and rowing with the oars.Sleeeeeeepy..We had to wake up at 5:30am every morning.

Getting used to the PFD(life jackets) and finally 'bathing' on the second day.Hahaha...the guy making the funny face is Ah Meng from Sabah.

Wheee....we're floating...

On the kayaks in 'roughed up' position.

Posing for the camera.The water was really deep by the way.

We kayaked all the way to Pulau Bumbung Kecil for lunch.One of our teachers,napping.Hahaha...

After lunch,we kayaked back to Tiloy Island.

Another beautiful view from our campsite.

Washing up the pots and pans after dinner.

3rd Day

Morning exercises.

My friend Fafa and I taught our team how to play FasaBili while waiting for the tongkang to bring us to the Reef Explorer,a ship.

On the tongkang.Lenna and I weren't supposed to talk to each other because she was in the other team,but we talked anyway.Hahaha....

VEGA,the other team is Rigel.

The tongkang.

Rope activities on the Reef Explorer.This activity is called Postis and another activity we did was Boom.We had to walk on a pole which was thicker than the rope,but it was also a lot higher compared to this activity.

Still on the Reef Explorer.

Learning about maritime activities and how to steer the ship.

At the base Camp

After the activities on the Reef Explorer,we went back to the base camp using the tongkang and took a lorry to our next campsite which was on the same island as the base camp,Pulau Tuba.

Preparing dinner after a long day.

Washing up after dinner at our 2nd camp site.

That night we did star gazing and learnt how to dance the pocok pocok,however you spell it,a dance from Sabah.

4th Day

We learned how to use the compass.

Learned how to determine the bearing and which direction we had to go that would lead us to our 3rd and final campsite.

Listening to Abang Boy and Kak Nora explain things to us.We had to lead ourselves,our trainers and our teachers to the campsite.Kak Nora and Abang Boy weren't going to say anything unless we were in deep trouble,meaning lost.Hahahaha...

Getting ready to start trekking.

Trekking to our next campsite.

The beach near our 3rd campsite.1st row from the left:Cjj,Cikgu Nizam,Ika,FaFa,Hong,Cikgu Zam.
2nd row from left:Jeeva,Amir,Ida,Chuu Voon,Ah Meng,Me,Joon,Nabilah.

3rd row from left:Standing : Saddam,Fahmi,Swee Chin,Izatti.Bending down : Pinat.

We had to do this activity called Solo Camp where we had to eat lunch alone.We were each stationed at a particular place and were told not to interact with one another although we were near by.We had to stay like that for around 2 1/2 hours,so naturally,we sneaked around,chatted,played games despite the direct orders we were given.It was hillarious!!!We did silly stunts and attempted to play mafia.Someone kept revealing who they were.Hahaha...

Back at the 3rd camp site

It was our last night with one another,so we were all emo.We had a session where we had to carry the lantern and either say sorry or thank you to one person.

I cried..hahaha...

5th Day

We had to clean up the camp site,tear down the shelters,kitchen and toilet and pack everything to bring back to the base camp.

Saddam and CJJ packing the camping bags.

VEGA Group Picture

Cleaning the toilet walls in the sea.

They were all so stubborn.None of them wanted to go in the water,so I splashed in and dragged them one by one.Hahahahah....

Packing everything into the speed boat and zooming off to the base camp.

After 5 days of not bathing,we were given permission to bathe!!!!The guys bathed in this cacat place and the girls got sort of proper toilets.Hahahaha!!Too bad for the guys.P.S.I did not take this photo......=P

Half of the VEGA team after bathing and after the last day performances.

Joon and me..=D

At langkawi

We went to the Bird Park.The bunnies were so extremely cute.I carried an eagle there,but I don't have the picture now.Lenna!!!Give me my picture!!!=P

Lenna and the bunnies.

1st row from left: Dunno who,Fa Fa and me
2nd row: Hong,Cikgu Nizam and another teacher.

Hong,Fa Fa and me.

My poser friend,the monkey!!!

Peacock..

White peacock.The first time I ever saw one.Reminds me of the story of the crow and the peacock.

Lately

2007-06-08T20:53:00.000+08:00

I have to say that I haven't exactly been myself lately.Even Chris and Jas noticed it at camp.Then,Lenna and the others noticed it at the sleepover.Honestly,I don't know what's causing it.Things have just been so,different lately.In what sense,I have no idea.I'll find out,I know I will.I don't want to be too much of an alien,cause that's just not me.=D

Of Midnight snacks and Freaky Windows..

2007-06-05T04:34:00.000+08:00

I'm at my friend,Rachel's house,at a sleepover.It's 4:35am and we just finished eating macaroni and cheese.Levina and I cooked,and I'm proud to say it turned out quite well,a little too salty because of the cheese,but it still tasted good.Everyone's just lazing around right now,and I'm still trying to decide on whether or not I want to sleep tonight..Hahaha..When we were coming up to Rachel's room,we all got a little frightened.The minute we stepped out of the kitchen,the temperature just literally DROPPED!!It was so cold,and we all started feeling suspicious.Then,when walking up the staircase,the windows which were closed when we went down were opened.I was walking up to the room alone.A few minutes later,Levina and Tinisha came up.Then when all the others came up,they started interrogating the three of us about the windows.We all got really freaked out since none of us touched the windows and there was alarms on the windows.We all tried thinking up reasons for why they were opened.Most of us were thinking 'spirits!!!!!!' and alarms were going off in our heads.The thing that made things worse was that Rachel told me earlier today that she felt like there was something in the room with her the past few days.So,we told Rachel to check with her mom.I was sooooo relieved when Rachel said that her mom opened up the windows because the cheese smell was so strong.PHEW!!!!!

Self-Worth

2007-06-02T17:29:00.000+08:00

I was just sitting here,thinking about things that have happened in my life,incidents that have scarred me emotionally and mentally,and I've decided I don't want to have to look at those incidents with regret and fear anymore.God didn't create us to be bullied by people,to be afraid of things in our lives.He created us to shine for Him,to praise Him,to love Him.There are so many things I've did in life that I'm not proud of,and I'm pretty sure I will never be proud of,but that doesn't mean those things should haunt me or discourage me.People shouldn't have to look at me and make me feel uncomfortable,because nobody can make me feel inferior without my permission.I am a woman of God and God created women as helpers,not as someone to disrespect and look down upon.Its stated in Genesis 2:18.There are so many men in my own life that have made me feel so worthless and I can't just sit down and be quiet about anymore.I know how precious I am and how much I'm loved by my Father and the people around me.Why should I have to put up with all those nonsense?I get especially irritated by strangers who just stare at girls like they want to eat them up.They don't have any respect for women.My friend told me she was walking along the roadside on day.This motorcyclist passed by with his girlfriend sitting behind him.He looked at my friend,gave her this really disgusting look and whistled at her!I was shocked when I heard about it.I mean,DUDE!!You're girlfriend is behind you and you're looking around at other girls.He disrespected 2 women at one go.Imagine how hurt his girlfriend might have been.The world we live in now is so self-centered.So many songs that are played on radio are about how much I am in pain,how I am over You,how You weren't good enough for Me or stuff like that.They always portray a picture of how 'perfect' they are and how the other person was the one who made the mistakes and not they themselves.Reality check;the world doesn't revolve around ONE PERSON.God created this world for all of us.God created women so men didn't have to be alone.Not so men can abuse women and tell them they're not worth anything.God didn't create ANYONE better than the other person.We are all equal.We each have something the other person doesn't,but that doesn't make you the better person.Know you're worth,that's really important,but also know that no one deserves to be treated like they're not worth it.So wake up!

AGC 2007

2007-06-01T18:31:00.000+08:00

It was fun!It was eventful!It was memorable!It was a major bonding session!It's so many emotions and words fused into one event!I had the best time ever despite the not so comfortable sleeping arrangements,very unhygienic+exposing bath times,waterless toilets and insect-infested ...everywhere.We played Mafia and I re-learned how to play Bridge.Mafia was really funny in the first round.Karyn and I were the Mafias.At one point they could guess that Karyn was the Mafia.Sarah kept saying that she was the Mafia and Karyn kept denying.This is roughly how the conversation went.
Sarah : Karyn,I know you're the Mafia lah!
Karyn : How you know?Just because you said so doesn't mean it's true!I'm NOT the Mafia ok!!
Sarah : But it says so on your card!!!
Karyn looked down at her upturned card.There was a silence for about 3 seconds and sudden;y the whole hall BURST into laughter.Those who were standing fell the ground and rolled with laughter.
Then,later that night,the others went night trekking.Sarah,Denise,Jasmine,Christina and I stayed back.Christina and I were lazy to do it so we used Jasmine as our cover.We said we were going to accompany her since her stomach wasn't feeling well.Denise and Sarah couldn't go because their parents didn't want them to.So the 5 of us reminisced about the 'not so old days'.We shared about our primary school experiences;the silly things we did,the crushes we had,gossiped a 'little'.After rolling around the mattresses laughing like mad people,we did something even sillier.We were listening to some music on my phone and we all just started putting actions to the lyrics of the songs.It doesn't sound funny here,but seriously we were howling with laughter!!At some parts we would go blank and just stare at each other and start laughing all over again.
There are so many other stories to tell!!!Yet,I can't.I have to honour the Fellowship of the Bath,the Fellowship of the Inner Thigh and the Heat Creators.Just to let you know,there was a lot of sabo-ing going on.Hahahaha...

Sarah Kim...

2007-05-28T21:39:00.000+08:00

Waaaahhh!!!!!I love her voice!!!!!!!!!!!How do people sing like that!!!!????

Tag...I'm it..

2007-05-28T20:23:00.000+08:00

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY
-Monkey
-Tomato
-Amoeba

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
- My eyes
- My hair
-My legs..hahaha(inside joke)
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF

-My lips..my grandma always says my lips are very pale and I look sick.
-My skin...pimples..sobs!!!
-My toes..they look a little alien cause they're so long..=P
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE
-Hakka(dad's side)
-Hokkien(mom's side)
-i'm a pure chinese??

THREE THINGS YOU CAN'T STAND
-insects(cockroaches) and reptiles
-my siblings arguing every day
-my siblings watching spongebob-_-

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
-being in a place totally and completely alone
-horror movies
-sharing stuff with my parents
THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE SHOWS
-Law and Order(s.v.u.)
-Heroes
-One Tree Hill=P
THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE JAPANESE ANIMES/CARTOONS
-Ayashi no Ceres
-Black Cat
-DN Angel
THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE NON-ENGLISH SHOWS
-Devil Beside You
-Stairway to Heaven
-A Millionaire's First Love
My mom got me hooked onto Korean dramas...Sigh...mommy,mommy..=P
THREE OF YOUR CURRENT FAVOURITE SONGS
-Elliot Yamin - Wait For You
-Hillsong United - Till I See You
-Sarah Kim - It's All About You
THREE MOVIES YOU CAN WATCH OVER AND OVER
-Pirates of the Caribbean=D
-10 Things I Hate About You(Chick Flicks Rule!!)
-Any Dance Movie
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS
-Water!!!Especially when I've got a really bad sore throat now..=D
-My Bible...love reading it!!=D
-My poem book and pencil.=D

THREE THINGS YOU'RE WEARING RIGHT NOW
-a purple t-shirt
-my hawaiian shorts
-my glasses

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP
-GOD!!
-Faith,Hope and Love=P
-Trust
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE GENDER THAT APPEALS TO YOU
-Their smile
-Nice teeth
-Their height
THREE BAD HABITS
-biting the skin on my fingers
-pinching my pimples =P
-rubbing my eyes till it becomes red and slightly painful
THREE THINGS YOU WANNA DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW
-Watch Pirates of the Caribbean 3..
-Stop my throat from hurting..
-Sing really well...
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING OR CURRENTLY PURSUING
-work in church=D
-something to do with writing
-start my own organisation which has to do with ....=P
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION
-UK(but i wanna go there to study)
-Macau again..
-Canada
THREE KIDS' NAMES YOU LIKE
-Arabella(Ari for short=P)
-[waiting for another 2 names to pop in my head]

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
-Start an organisation which has to do with...=P
-learn ballroom dancing with my mommy ^_^
-publish a book and record my own song =D
THREE THINGS THAT YOU'RE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL
-I'm afraid of insects =P
-I like having long hair,but I look better with short.I can't do anything with short hair..can't braid or..whatever you do...
-I love soft toys ^_^
INTIALS OF THREE CRUSHES
-something from A-Z
-something from A-Z
-something from A-Z
THREE PEOPLE YOU TAG TO DO THIS SURVEY
-Lenna
-Kim(tag ya back^^)
-whoever wants to do this tag.I KNOW YOU DO!!SO,DO IT!!!=P

Trust...

2007-05-19T17:55:00.000+08:00

Lately I've been pondering a lot on the topic of Trust.There are so many people I trust in my life;my friends mainly.I realised that I always say my parents don't trust me and they don't understand me.Then,I questioned myself, "Do I trust my parents enough for them to trust me back?" That got me thinking.What if I trusted my parents more?I obviously trust my friends way more than my parents.It's weird how we can trust those not related to us more than those who watched us grow since we were infants.That's how I am anyway,I don't know about you.So,I'm challenging myself to open up more to my parents,as awkward as it may be in the beginning,I trust God to help me trust my parents,and my parents,me..

Another Day..

2007-05-17T21:14:00.000+08:00

CF was really fun.I really opened up to my friends and teachers in CF and it felt really good.I felt such a connection there today and it just made me spill all my worries to them.Our CF is quite small so it wasn't like I was telling the whole world.We shared about how different our churches were and what made us enjoy being in church.We also talked about how the world viewed Christianity today.It was really refreshing and relieving.I've never felt so safe in school like I did today.God really helped me to just believe in them,to trust that they would help me in more ways than I could ever imagine and they did.Although I'm in a methodist school,at least 75% of the student population are Malays.I always get worried when they ask me about Christianity cause I'm worried I might offend them by accident or say something wrong that might cause a conflict.So,being in CF just made me feel good.Today was one of the longest days in my life...

Baby Pics^^

2007-05-16T15:21:00.000+08:00

Farrel torturing Amelia.
Amelia
Brian
Brian and Daddy
Amelia(Mei Mei) and Daddy
Amelia on top of Brian with Daddy and me.
Mei Mei
Mei Mei again..
Farrel

Farrel and Amelia
Amelia and Brian.
Brian
Farrel and Amelia

Farrel
Mommy and Mei Mei
Brian
Farrel sleeping.
Punk Farrel

For the Fake Sister..

2007-05-14T16:58:00.000+08:00

5 THINGS FOUND IN YOUR BAG
- calculator
- books
- my poem book=D
- loads of paper
- umbrella

5 THINGS FOUND INSIDE YOUR WALLET (My Purse...)
- coins..no notes=P
- receipts
- heart-shaped money too
- my IC
- a picture with my frens

5 FAVORITE THINGS IN MY ROOM
- my bed
- my pillow
- my bolster
- the tv
- dvd player

5 THINGS YOU'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO DO
- learn the guitar
- make a short 'movie' with my friends
- DRIVE!!!
- go to London
- be in arts stream

5 THINGS YOU'RE CURRENTLY INTO
- writing
- screaming my lungs out at my siblings(u shud try it=P)
- blogging
- swimming
- add maths

5 PEOPLE YOU WILL TAG
- no one..I am a good person=P

One Thing I'm Gonna Do After My Exams..

2007-05-10T20:45:00.000+08:00

POST BABY PICTURES OF MY YOUNGER SIBLINGS!!!!BWAHAHAHAHA!!!So,watch out for it.^_^

My friend is weird..

2007-05-09T18:42:00.000+08:00

Levina,Tinisha and I were walking to KL Library today.We took a shortcut through the Kementerian Kesihatan route.As we were walking,Levina noticed a cat.Then Tinisha suddenly blurted out,"Eh,the cat looks like a chicken hor?"I was like...wert???O.o???Then she said,"Neh,like in the market the chicken no feather one.Then they bend the chicken legs to the butt.It looks exactly like that wei!!!"Levina and I just kept quiet,or rather we had no idea how to respond to that.
P.S.I highly dislike Physics.(The word hate seemed too harsh)

Some Things I want to do in Life..

2007-05-08T20:05:00.000+08:00

Write a book,a good one...
Learn to play the guitar...
Pick up piano again...
Do full time/part time in church...
Create a masterpiece(haven't decided out of what)...
Sing without messing up in front of a large crowd...
Use the scholarship I got from Inti...
Study in England...
Fall in love??hahaha...
Play paintball and futsal!!!(haven't done those yet)...
Be able to act a little girly without feeling weird=P...

Song???Maybe...

2007-05-07T15:59:00.000+08:00

Wanting things to happen faster,
Wanting things to breeze on by.
Setting foot into my future,
Watching as people walk pass by.

Searching for a face,
One that makes everything seem so safe,
Reaching out to fulfill fate.
Is this the way,things are supposed to go by?

Calling out your beautiful name,
One of a kind,nothing's the same.
Individually unique,paired off in the game of faith,
Will yours be greater or will we be the same?

*written last year

1st of May..

2007-05-01T18:27:00.000+08:00

Today was a really good way of starting the new month.One thing I realise in myself is that I don't appreciate the months that go by in a year as much as I should.Think about it;each month only appears ONCE in ONE year.Then you have to wait the next year for the month to come.It's sort of like birthdays,which if you haven't realised,happens only ONCE every single year.For some people it's ONCE every FOUR YEARS!!I wonder what that feels like?Does it make the person feel more or maybe less special?Birthdays aren't always the greatest day of the year,not to me at least.
Being able to run on a proper track again is sooooooo nice!!I just love running.Well,mostly when I win.=P The adrenaline pumping throughout my whole body.My heart beat racing.My palms start to sweat and the knot in my stomach becomes tighter.Time seems to go by painstakingly slow as I'm waiting for the signal to start.I get agitated and start to fidget,moving so very slightly in fear that the signal might catch me off guard.I stare straight ahead,not bothering to look who my opponents are.On your mark!Get set!GO!!I start pushing myself forward.Legs moving,eyes focused on the path in front of me.There's no sounds,no sights around me.The voices are shut out,all except for the voice in my head.Silently praying as I run.One by one the other runners are forced to try to regain composure as I cut past them.The wind has never felt so good.I push my muscles some more,not letting them settle for pain without the placing I want.Soaring,although it feels like something is trying to pull me back,to stop me from getting furthur ahead.Finally,the finish line.No one else has reached there before me and I jump for joy!Not realising,and not caring how silly I looked with the goofy grin on my face.

Pictures ^^

2007-04-30T21:30:00.000+08:00

Hahah..my sis right after she woke up.

My sis and I.We put powder on her face to see how tanned I became after being sunburned.

Brian when he was a lot younger.So super cute!!

My monkey-faced brother.There James..=P

Some Things I'm scared of...

2007-04-30T20:26:00.000+08:00

I'm scared of being alone in the dark...
I'm scared of people when they wear masks(both literally and not)...
I'm scared of cockroaches...
I'm scared of wearing skirts sometimes..
I'm scared of horror movies..
I'm scared of showing too much emotions...
I'm scared of really really really high places...

Randomness..

2007-04-30T20:21:00.000+08:00

cucumbers are cool...
so is the north pole..
and south pole...
cucumbers in the sun are sun-dried coolness...
ben,ur wardrobe is not cool=P...
tv is super cool...
especially shaun the sheep...
but spongebob is not cool...

My Week(sounds like an essay title O.o)...

2007-04-27T17:23:00.000+08:00

Well,this last week has been pretty interesting.Quite a number of things happened.Monday was really nice(after school I mean).Levina and I went to Petaling Street after school to get something.After looking around and not finding whatever it was we were looking for,we decided to go back to KL Library.On the way to the library,it started drizzling.So,we stood under a tree so that we wouldn't get wet.The bad thing was,the rain got a whole lot heavier.And the other bad thing was,I was wearing my white PJ shirt.Sigh....So,we ran all the way to the library since we thought it was already quite near to where we were trying to shade ourselves.When we reached the library,we looked as if we just got out of the shower.Oh wait,let me rephrase that.It looked like we just came out from showering with our clothes on.Yea,that's the right way to say it.It felt good actually,running in the rain.I hadn't done it since I-have-no-idea-when,and it felt really really good to do that again.It was as if I was 6 again,and I was trying to imitate a show I had watched where the lady was spinning around in the rain.The only difference was,they didn't add thunder and lightning in the movie.Such a smart 6 year old I was.Lol..
On that same day,during school time,I was told I was chosen as a 'Calon Pengawas' together with Levina and Tinisha.I wasn't sure whether I wanted to be a prefect,especially since that would mean Lenna,my cousin,might turn out to be the only one in my group to not be a prefect.So,during interviews the next day,I declined the offer.The prefectorial board in my school isn't very high-standard,and some of the prefects' behaviors were really bad.Another reason I said no was because I wasn't exactly 'doing' all my homework,so I didn't want to be an irresponsible prefect.Hahahaha...I think the only reason I wanted to be a prefect was because of the uniform and to be with my friends.I'm half-hoping Levina and Tinisha won't get chosen.Evil me..Donkey,Sha,you guys didn't read that...=P